SaphireFlames52

    It was the first week of college and I could already feel the repression fill inside of me. I have so many thoughts and desires yet I am unable to convey them due to a prior promise. I had met an amazing person through my job. Jake was a not my type in the slightest, but there was this sparkle about him that completely led me toward him as a person. Maybe it was the deep seeded yearning for something I was not allowed to have. We have all experienced the want of something you can’t have, yet with me it is as if I will not live on if I don’t end up with that prize. I ended up with Jake, but I had soon realized what I had done.

 All i think about is dying   I dont even feel like trying What i feel is pain and sorrow   The wind screams in pain with me I dont want to see a future in this world Nobody knows the pain im ingesting at night   The room gets cold and my conciousness slight All i see is the razor on my wrist   It paints a picture so harsh yet swift The canvas scared with slits on my wrist For a while it frees me   But still nobody sees me Not even a guess that something is wrong I try to see the light   But the dark just fills me with fright   People dont care what has been said or done They just continue on like they have done no harm I wash away